Opening the door to infertility

Finally got a call from the  Reproductive specializes office today. After almost four weeks of lots of blood work and more test we will be going in for "The Game Plan" meeting on Tuesday, May 2. 


As I told you in the welcoming post we started our journey with the reproductive specialist on April 4. On that day we  met with Dr. Preloe; a doctor who specializes in patients with PCOS(Polycystic ovary syndrome ). He really seems to be a good person and a doctor who 
really knows his stuff. At our first visit he told us that I would have to change my way of eating
 for the rest of my life. I have been put on, what I like to call, a cave man diet. Lean meats, Low 
Carbs and gluten free foods. Being on this type of diet I will be at less risk of diabetes, heart 
problems and obesity. Which in my eyes are all good things. However, I must say I miss my 
cakes, pasta and cookies.  This girl LOVES to bake but there will not be a lot of that around here
 anymore. I also have to work out 5 days a week and most likely be put of a medication call
metformin. I believe all these things are a small price to pay in order to expand our family. I 
know God will bless us in his time. However, I also know that if I don't work for it I will not
receive it. 


In my blog I would also like to open the door to talking about infertility.  There are a lot of 
women and men in the world that have fertility issues and are suffering in silence. This topic is
somewhat a "HUSH HUSH" subject and I would like more people to open up about it. I 
personally struggle a lot with all my emotions. I know there are other people in the world that
struggle as well. We just do not know where to turn.  After a lot of research about PCOS I have
came across a  blog and a website for people that have some of the same things going on as I do.
However, I find myself holding back when it comes to engaging in the topic. Why? Well a lot of it
is the worry of people judging. As women it is our job to conceive and carry a baby-- then love,
care for and raise those children. Some days I feel like I have failed at this job because I am 
unable to conceive... again. I know a lot of people are probably thinking, "You should be happy
with what you got". Yes, I have a daughter,whom I am very grateful to God for. I thank him
everyday for my miracle. After learning what I have (PCOS), that is what she is. I should not
have ever gotten pregnant and knowing that makes me love her so much more and be that 
much more thankful for her. I do not want anyone to think this is a "oh poor, Jena" type of blog 
because I do not want pity from anyone. I do not pity myself nor my situation.  I simply want to
OPEN the door and get people talking and praying for those who are out there that desperately
want children and are unable to conceive naturally or at all. 


Life is hard when you know you have a whole in your heart and sole, where you 
know a child should be.   


Here are the links to the website and blog I was referring to above. Also if you click on the bold 
underline words Polycystic ovary syndrome and the word infertility in third paragraph you can 
learn what it is.


http://bridgetobaby.com

http://pcosdiva.com


This is a picture that the PCOS Diva posted on Facebook.. Found it to fit my though.

Jade

JADE 

Life with Jade is simply amazing!

                Jade is now 12.5 years old, 5'4" , 93.4 lbs and the prettiest young lady in the world. I may be a little partial but she is a wonderful daughter and a beautiful human being. 

She made it to middle school and has done great. 6th grade will never be the same again. She was inducted to the JR Beta Club on my birthday, February 28, 2012 and has managed to stay on the Honor Roll all year long. I am a proud mom, there is no doubt!!!  

Welcome

Welcome to my crazy world... I will be using this blog to keep family and friends up to date on all the crazy things that are happening in our lives. 

Where to start has to be the hardest part... As most of you know we live in La Grange, Ga. It has been 3 years since we moved from Mississippi; although we miss it some days we know we have a good life here.  Mississippi will always hold a spot in my heart as that is where my family and child hood friends are, it is also where I had my daughter, met and fell in love with Bill and is where my brother was buried. 


Life since we moved to Georgia has been a roller coaster of laughs and tears. I will start our journey from the point of when we got engaged.. December 25, 2009... 
Bill, Jade and I went to Pittsburgh to visit Bill's family for the holidays. This was also the first time that Jade got to go to Pittsburgh. Christmas morning came as normal, Mrs Kim got a video camera as her gift and was recording everything. We got down to the last gift, Bill had a special gift for Jade (a Tinkerbell snow globe), as he handed the bag to Jade he went down on one knee in front of me... He told he had lied to me and he was sorry but he had gotten me a gift (We promised we weren't exchanging gifts). My reaction was "What the hell did you do?" He pulled out a box and asked me to marry him. I cried and said yes, them we realized that Jade was crying a little harder than I was. Bless her heart she did not know it was happening, nor did I. We were both caught completely off guard and she was upset because she does not like surprises. It was a great and wonderful surprise that we were all very happy about. Including Jade, once the shock wore off. 
We returned to Georgia and a few months later (February 16, 2010) Bill and I went down to the court house and got hitched, secretly.  We did not tell a sole because we were still planning on having a wedding. Things fell through and others came to light.. We bought our first home instead of spending big $$$ on a wedding.  

 June 2010 We purchased our first home as a family... Maybe I should say I purchased it because I had to sign all the paper work x2 because Bill was in Korea for work related stuff. I  closed on the house that Friday, picked him up from the airport that Saturday and started moving that afternoon.  It was a long weekend but thanks to our friends ,The Terry's, we got it all moved by the end of the day Sunday.  Thank God it was summer and I could work on getting the house together... It took me the week to get everything in it's place and realize we had a lot of space to fill. Our house has 5 bed rooms and 3 baths, a formal dinning room and formal living room.  We barely had enough furniture to fill a living room, Jade's bedroom and our bed room. Over time we started filling it up with STUFF. 


Soon after Bill and I got married we decided that we wanted to expand our little family. We tried for a while with no luck. We started the process of finding out why we were not getting pregnant in August 2010. Test after test, blood work and check ups with no answers I decided to go see another doctor. August 2011 my new Doctor told me that I had PCOS and put me on Clomid. After 7 months of using the clomid and we still were unable to get pregnant we were referred to a reproductive specialist. So as of April 4th, 2012 we started a new path for us to expand our family...  So now you are update on what's going on in our crazy world.. Stay tune!!!!